“FANTABULOUS”.

Dinner with Noreen, my 2nd elder.

And this is what we had: BBQ-stingray; BBQ-sotong; Kangkong; ‘Sea-harms’; rice to go with. I’m damn bloated like a balloon right now!!

So anyhow,

[DANGS.] I bailed out on my friends- once again. Okay, so maybe it was my fault for slipping out of mind the time we were supposed to meet, but i really don’t recall getting it last night. And since it was raining heavily earlier on and noone called me regarding the confirmation of meeting time, i gladly assumed it could have been cancelled? … Whatever, i know i pissed the other one over the phone whilst in the midst the conversation. I’M SORRY. I fickle-mindedly decided not to go band this morning knowing that i would wake up only in the late noon. Then now? Even if i have fifteen minutes to rush my ass out of the house, i rather skip it. Rushing ain’t my forte. To add on, my sister came home and i can’t possibly leave her alone, right? After all, it was so ’cause mummy told her i had nothing on today since from the time i woke up i had no news about this evening. I know, ‘EXCUSES’ would be the answer to anyone. Fine by me, i’m now mad at assuming and speaking with the wrong tone over the phone. Great now, am i suppose to be all crazy? … Fuck. I’m just gonna switch my mobile to the ‘silent-without-vibration’ mode and read my pathetic storybook. So much for trying to please everyone, and i failed.

BYE TO MY “FANTABULOUS” FEBRUARY!

WHAT A GOOD RIDDANCE INDEED!

Unwind or Rewind? -[Edited]

I don’t wanna post too many words for this entry. Let’s just leave it to be pictures. (:

February 24, 2009

-Bishan Junction8, with MeiQi!!(:

-Thomsom ICE³, with Desmond and Jasen!!(:

February 25, 2009

-Far East Plaza and Cineleisure, with JiaYan & Thazin!!(:

Today, February 26, 2009

-Sentosa, with three couples!! :X

That’s about it, folks!

GOODNIGHT.♥

Touch me not.

Will this make you reconsider me then? Okay, so i was crapping. 😀

And all of a sudden, i have a fetish for tattoo at the back! Yes, the ENTIRE BACK. Let’s hope it doesn’t grow any stronger.

When will everything fall back into place?

Caught up with my dearest two yesterday. Like FINALLY can!!!! [haha.] Great thing to have them- they’d never judge me. [kissy, dearies!] Anyhow, i need to wash away the bad habit- ‘Impulsive-Buys’. Randomly wanted another pair of shorts and yeah i got it. BUT, i felt damnDAMN cheated can!!!! ): Dearieyann told me i could have gotten it at another shop for 21$ instead of 29.90$!! Someone help me save money, please?…. Just few days back and i bought a lacoste bag. 150$ burnt. No idea why i wanted it when it’s so useless. Very huge in size too; and the handles are lousy- they’re so hard that my right shoulder’s still in pain. [grrrr.] Oh, I NEED A JOB!!!!!!

All i yearn for now is peace in place.. So please, stop being a bitch behind me.

Leave me alone.

My head’s spinning and i’m way HUNGRY!!~ …

I cant get to sleep. Once again, someone changed my mood and for worst. It’s been the 2nd/3rd time by now. Anyhow, i’ll skip this issue. Recently, i personally feel that i have had enough to keep me going busy (with thinking for myself); and seriously.. I dont need to be farther burdened by others’ troubles. Or rather, I DONT WISH NOR WANT TO. I’M SORRY IF THIS MAY BE BLUNT TO WHOEVER WHO READS THIS. FOR NOW, I AINT GONNA CARE MORE FOR ANYONE ELSE THAN MYSELF. If you’ve seek for advices; i’ve given you all of that i could source for. Based on my current status, i suggest: DONT ASK FROM ME.

Every morning, i wake up and force myself to sleep. Every night, i have trouble sleeping. I cant help myself but to brood over the same matter- every hour. Finishing a book was never challenging, but now, a chapter seems to take forever. Music no longer soothes my mind yet it turned to be an irritant. I’m losing patience whilst typing away. Let’s just end it here.

I wanna cry out instead, but i dont have a shoulder to hold my head..

I need somemore anymore whatever!!!

[Dang.] YES, YOU GUESSED IT. APPEALS-  UNSUCCESSFUL. Who in the world is more screwed than i am right now? Let me know please.

And lowering my morale by inches, my knees are still hurting from the unglam fucking fall-flat fall last night; or rather this morning. Like i will flinch away each time they hit something. [gawwh]

Cant i just not stop enjoying all the fun i have? Everytime when something gets screwed, good-time/s never failed to overwhelm the bad-feel. Then suddenly, BAMB! -another screw up. Whatever, whatever, WHATEVER! I’m just gonna bite on some choco roll and read my storybook, before i start yelling at people. Fuck. Who’s in for a drink to kill this weekend?!

Fuck.

Contradiction.

So, i dont exactly look forward to my ‘want/s’ since i’ve not a clue about it. And somehow or rather, i have a clear mind of my ‘dont want/s’. I hope deciding between this and that aint gonna be any tougher simply ’cause i know i cant take it anymore.

People. Human beings. They just dont understand one another. So much for wanting them to return, they choose to drift farther. Then unexpectedly, they appear. [gawwh].

It’s been long since all was calm. Two years; now too late- i’m losing faith. I cannot forget. ‘Why/s’- it’s that little left you owe. Teach me- i want to let go.