Being tempermental recently. No, it’s not moodswing. Just unable to hold back my frustrations with all that in hand i’m confused over that’s unsettled..
At times i’d really wonder- “why must people wear mask/s..” Don’t they ever feel tired of having to hide behind the mask that they’re wearing? Imagine the amount of lies/ white lies which they’d have to remember.. Then what more to further lie to compromise with the lies before? Life is such a hassel when you can’t truely express yourself, no?
Lately and i’ve been counting on the incidents whereby i live, functioning with my heart more than my head.. Appears to me that many of times, i was taken granted for.. I’ve always believed that i’m one whom forgets but never forgives. Yet it seems more like the other way round- i forgive but i just won’t forget..
Friends claimed that i’m too dumb to know what’s going on in this real world and that there’s an ugly side to it. Then again, why am i bitching away here? Mummy says a have a ‘soft ear’. She says that it means i trust people’s words too easily. Quite true about that. =x But for the benefit of doubt, i mustn’t think ill of anyone right from the start, agree?
Whatever, i’m really exhausted having to choose believing who’s true and not.. It’s tiring, very; to the extreme. I’m not up to these games of late anymore. It’s sick how friends end up being suspicious of one another, hence start being shady about everything. It’s so much more challenging than mind games, honestly speaking.. Will friends ever betray you that harshly and or even take you for granted? If so, should they still be labelled as ‘friends’? Maybe it’s time i start brainstorming who are those whom are truely ‘friends’.. Just how does one perfect imperfections?
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Oh, last week Dennis and i chatted on messenger. (: Like finally can! [Haha.] Guess what?! He sent me this ‘Jai Ho’ song which was played during the ‘Slumdog Millionaire’ by Pussycat Dolls? And it’s this song which i tried downloading and caused my lappy to have been injected with viruses! ): Thank goodness all’s good again. (: He misses Singapore in less than a month over at Brunei. Poorthing. I keep thinking how’s it over there for him. It’s gonna be another ¾-year and more for him before he returns! I miss my friend already. ): And definitely, also Clarissa who’s in China. But she would be back soon- say August the 2nd ‘2009(if i didn’t remember wrongly).. I love you, big-ssa!! ♥♥ *(sending over to cheena)*.. Oh dear. I’ve yet to meet my lovely girl- Jaslyn, soon since she’s finally back from Shanghai! JiaYan, if you happen to read this entry, please help me with fixing a date for yourself, Jaslyn and i!! It’s time that blossom, bubbles and buttercup start hanging out again(though i know other than myself, you two are always busy with school).. (: Thazin, i’ve yet to meet up with you and chill too! (:
And, i’ve been doing principles of accounts lately too! Helping girlfriend out through messenger with her sums. (: I like lunching with her at factory’s canteen. But not so much when the korean food digests(oh, she knows why, i think). It’d be perfect if we can lunch together every once in a week. (: Say ‘yes’, MeiQi!! (:(:
Whoops, apologies for a rather lengthy entry after not posting for a few days. =x That’s about it for now since i’m no longer feeling bloated after breakfast with Mommy an hour ago.. (: Shall get some sleep now. =x
One thing i’m sure- I love all of my friends truely.. ♥