She said ‘no.’..

I’m really upset today.. Had fish & co. today for dinner with momo and nor at amk hub. While waiting for nor to meet us after her work, i spoke to momo about my financial assistance from her. One word to describe her- unreasonable. )’: I hate how she answered me with a whole lot of excuses about my savings for school fees and expenses..

For the last time i’m saying it, i’m not taking any money from her for my school fees. Now it’s more than just that. ’cause even expenses is included. I really wonder..

What is family for..

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I’m gonna buy a weighing machine in a few days time and a new pair of home-slippers, hopefully i can find a STITCH one. Mine’s spoilt. ): (if i have the time)..

Aight, i really hate my off-day today. ):

Boo you teressa.. Lousy shit.

Oh, you weakie! Wake up!

[Cough-cough.] Earlier i ate two bowls of rice and some home-cooked dishes. Totally an unhealthy diet. Damn you Teressa! You’re fat! Stop eating!!!! ;(

Anyhow, work’s been a bitch as always. It may be the last week of October and almost two months more until Christmas, the retail line is all set preparing for the end-year sale. Everyday’s gonna be packing of gift-boxes, replenishing of stocks, stocking up free-gifts, oredering of stocks, awaiting for the incoming brand.. It’s so maddening that before November’s here, i’m packed with work(very much). Even before i’m at work or on my off-days, i’d receive calls and texts bugging me about work just ’cause my partners don’t seem to bother about anything at all. If it weren’t for money, they’re as of ‘dead’. Whenever my sales rep. drops by at the store, he keeps ranting how stressed up he is and the only thing i could do to help him out is to listen and do whatever for work within my means. I’m so sick of work. Then again, if i don’t go to work, what else can i do until December? Nothing. [Grrrr.] Please, someone remind me about my SIM aplication before then end of November. I’m so worried that i may slip it off my mind unintentionally. These days, i’ve been jotting down notes and reminders.. Somehow i’m afraid that there’s so much of every lil’ thing that’s keeping my mind fully-occupied. ):

Press on, Teressa! You know you can..

Owl’s gone to bed late again.. ):

That’s the most i can say here. Till then, Prettybites.

Com’on! (…)

I wish i could time-travel; that way i’d be able to know what happens in the future.. Then again, i prefer it better when everything in life has it’s own progression. It’s gonna be November in less than a week! And there’s a bit for me to do before it’s over..

 Boo, tired. I’m out of here.

I merely want to do better from now.

):

What happened to you, Ace? *tsktsk*

Anyhow, overall disapproval of taking in the siberian husky.. I’m so upset.

And i hate my aunt & her sickening husband. They’re evil-mean-idiots!

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I keep getting headaches so bad nowadays. Yet sleep is not the issue..

In hours time, work’s gonna start and end just-another-day.

Boo. Let me die.

Not all is good.

The Brat. =x

[Hahahahaa.] Shih Ting Han just chatted on messenger with me and shared with me a really great piece of news. That is- he’ll probably drop by Singapore say around the 22nd of December and will be staying for four fantabulous days! Which means, Anna and i can start planning on a reunion-Christmas party soon! *only till further confirmation/s* And he thinks being 40kg is totally fine when i don’t! ): Anyhow, he’s gone for class(he’s in US right now). That idiot never fails to ‘irritate’ me since primary school. *L.O.L*

Those good old days huh..

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On a not-so-bright note, today’s really lousy. Shit happens. Though i made my sales rise from 158.00$ after seven pathetic regular hours up to 1181.70$(158.00$ +694.00$*shirts* +329.70$*pants*) with an unintentional over-time of one and a half hours, i was reprimanded for my polkadots socks only after i was finally heading home!! ): And when i was home, sissy was being duper calculative that im owing her for sissy-no.2’s 21st birthday presents. Next, she dug up the issue of me owing momo money for the month that i’ve yet to give.. Transportation and food is enough to tax me empty in the pocket yet there i’m trying to save for school too. Can’t they just stop bugging me with these lil’ amounts? It’s not like i don’t have a creditor at hand already and it’s more than the total of theirs both.. ): I’m so exhausted of managing my money every month. ): I don’t wanna do anything!! It’s as if nothing is ever going right for me. Family, school, work, money, and relationship.. I’m drained; totally. Thank goodness, a couple of close friends may not be enough but i’m glad i have them still..

Finally it’s off-day and i get to sleep in for the day but not totally. There’s a funeral to attend to pay my last respect to my popo’s sister-in-law.. Thus, i got to be at popo’s(Chinatown) before 5pm!! I’ve yet to iron some clothes for tomorrow. And i hardly have spare cash with me now. ):

Oh, Junia just told me that there’s a siberian husky to be given away ’cause her ex-boyfriend’s dad found it abandoned. I really want it since all i have now is a pathetic cactus that revived from my negligence back last month and now it’s all growning tall and thick! (: But i’m afraid i can’t support the dog on my own and further make it’s life more/ as pathetic than/as mine.. Besides, momo is too afraid of fury animals. ): I really want to love that poor husky.. )’: I miss Ace.. I’m so useless; as always.. )’:

Aight, gonna cook some instant noodles. Diarrhoea-d the day was tough.

I hope you can drown me with all those ideas of yours to help me out like before.. I’m lost at my doings. Life’s uncertainties are too much for me to handle all alone right now..  

Where are you, C? … 

)’:

Hanging.

Bruised and battered by your words;

dazed and shattered how it hurts..

Haven’t I always loved you?

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Oh no, i’m growing fatter again. ): My cheeks are becoming a lil’ too chubby and so are my thighs getting thicker.. Needless to say, my rounder tummy! =x It’s really so ugly and bothering! ):

And i hate sleeping with momo on the same bed. She’s always occupying ¾of the Q-size bed yet kicking me still! ): I’d rather share the bed with someone else than momo! *angry*

My beloved esprit watch spoilt. Not exactly though. It’s just that the leather strap is all in a pathetic situation and noway am i wearing it anymore to further destroy it. *upset*

I want a kate spade(Classic Noel Stevie- Black & a Centro Remy- Brown) but i can’t have either.. It’s price-y. *deprived*

I want an iphone! But my cell’s serving me well still. ): **damn it, i can’t spend a cent**

Why am i so pathetic? (turns to a corner to pout)

[Ahh.] Bad headache again.

Hi Sunday. Bye Sunday.

[Grrrr.] It’s here and soon it’s gone-again as usual. Work’s been keeping me busy enough to miss out a couple of events and more to come. Though it’s only Saturday(24th October) that’s Yeelin’s pajamas party, i can already foresee how i’m giving it a miss since i can’t take off on 25th October. ): (shall promise her to meet up soon and give her her 21st birthday prezie..) And Nor’s pre- 21st birthday dinner is just later in the evening yet i can’t be part of it- ’cause of work.. Why so many October babies?!!! *hole in the pocket* Oh, and i ran my left foot at the edge of the fixture at work earlier.. *prays for no injuries this time round* How clumsy can i be huh..

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There’s so much for the week about to tap the keypad yet i’m just too lazy to do it. Teressa’s exhausted.

Anyhow, i’ve decided to perm my hair soon but not so soon. Say in December.. (: Other than school issue, i’m not planning on any other-else. Every day is just as tiring as a bee’s day, and planning my days would just give myself lesser of my time for own space. Friends, i’m gonna work out on impromptu-‘plans’ again. So just beep my cell anytime, with a text perferred though. Work’s a bitch- i hardly am able to use my cell even. Goodnight, Prettybites. ♥

Bring me up high.

Call me a ‘nothing’.

Weeks back, it was said to be last time i’m gonna have to see that bastard, but no. In a few hours time, i have to see him at court- again! I really hope this would be the last. And i can’t take leave from work. How tormenting is it man.. God, give me a break.. The thought of it all makes me sick.

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It seems like i keep changing my mind about an important decision. First, i want it then i don’t; then when i do, i wanna change certain details; and then not. Tell me what’s the matter with me.. It’s a fact that things are slow-moving that it bothers me and i’m looking for ways to speed it all up to see some progress. Yet nothing can be done.

Guess i’ll just have to be patient.

)’:

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Some things just never would change. So please stop letting me know anyway. It’s been over so long ago.. I merely ask to be alone again.. Or at least i don’t wanna be wrong about these this time round.

I’m a happy child but…

It’s only a week past and i had Osaka Town for my ‘dinner’ again.. Yesterday big-Ong(Joan) and i decided on that since it started drizzling heavily the moment we stepped out of the shelter. The ambience there is just so tempting. So many October babies this month. ): I’m gonna owe birthday presents.. ): Tight-budget-October. ):): I’m happy today! I hit a total sum of 613.00$ for sales today on my own! And that totally out-do my other full-timer who only reached 598.90$!! Though both of us sold six shirts each, i made the right choices and pushed my sales by promoting the higher price-point shirts!! (:(: Smarty pants, i know! (:(:(: Junia came down to Raffles City to cover shift for Joan; and her mom sent me back to AMK! So nice of them both.. Today’s a day of many things to be happy over, no?  But i got my right index finger cut by some i-don’t-know what.. *pain* ):):): Finally it’s off-day!!! Goanna meet Chua Anna in the noon after so lonnnggg~ (:(:(: Still, i have to unpack my belongings.. ):): [Urgh.] Hungry!! ): I’m gonna make some instant noodles man!

Remaining optimistic, still i wish i have you along by my side, C.

Booshit.

): DearieYan texted me saying she has work till ten-PM and no way will we be able to meet after that since it’s gonna be late for us then.. Nothing to look forward to after work. ):): And we’ll probably meet only on Sunday for dinner or a drink. *fingers-crossed*

[Grrrr.] Am (ber-lar-dee) TIRED! Was left with no choice but to stay for the annual stock-take which falls on TODAY(12th October). Just gotten home like an hour ago.. Thank goodness i was only assisting supervisor Charles and he let me off earlier than the rest. As usual, i’m gonna rant how work’s a pain in the neck. Only after a month and the Buyer decided that he should demand my boss to station me back at Centrepoint. BUT, my hopes were dashed the moment he realised that i’d be leaving the company at the end of next month. ): The best he’s trying to do is to drop by more often and ensure that all is well at work for me.. ):): And crap, boss will be dropping by later whilst i’m at work. I hope he doesn’t further pressurize us about the sales this week as it’s really been down compared to last week’s though it’s only a day past.. Andandand, i want to take leave so badly on the 25th October.. That way i can happily enjoy the night with Yeelin and the girls for the mini-pajamas-party as planned by birthday girl- Yeelin! *prays*

Great, it’s merely October and i’m thinking of Christmas. Seems like i have a long wishing list this year. =x

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Some photos from 09/10/2009.

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By random, i watched Pinocchio last night on Disney channel! (: Childhood.

[Urgh.] If only there ain’t work later..