Hello there!

So, again I’ve abandoned this space of mine for almost a year.. Not gonna let that happen so poof, im back! Keeping it short for this post before the more frequent updates, I shall sum up the most important event thus far.

All these time while im away from wordpress, I’ve been depending more on twitter to let out my thoughts instead.. I guess when all’s really shitty, the best you could do is let it all out but not in full details.. Anyway, im glad for being on a really long break and having just enough alone time lately to sort certain things out within myself. Firstly, I never believed in finding closures for unhappiness held deep inside me. Then just when I chose to create a little-some-happiest-moments again, I thought to myself, that should be it, I had enough. I can’t continue to hurt anymore especially myself and my loved ones. With that, i’d say I finally found my closure, the answer to everything that made me such an unhappy person. I guessed that all these years, I really just wanted to feel that same happiness the one gave me but deprived me of it and hurt me further on. But this time, it’s different. Maybe the one who did all that didn’t see this coming, but still- im letting go. Reason because I don’t see why I need to create more happy memories to overwhelm and replace the amount of hurt you did which I didn’t deserve for the longest time. Right now, im determined to give myself another shot to be better, but not to the one but another who deserves it. Dear you, I hope you won’t start getting impatient and mad at me when im not gonna be there. I did whatever I could but as usual, you’ve always chose to leave me behind. I hope God takes over from here and that you remember the last bit- we were happy, you, kiba and I.. So thank you for that last bit. (‘: You’ll always be a memory..

I will be good, I will be strong, and I will be happier.