Something i can’t seem to let go..

Over the weekends, jS accompanied me to pasir ris dog farm looking for puppies. As much as i wanted to have one of my own, my mom disapproved so.. No doubt that i may not have what it takes to maintain a dog but at least i know i have the time and commitment to give.. After walking around the different kennels, we finally met one which was so lovable at one of the last few stops.. It is a silky terrier puppy that was hopping around its cage.. It’s merely two-months old and its legs were still short(hence the hopping i guess).. It doesn’t bark either unlike the other poodles around it which were whining nonstop.. i couldnt resist it so much that i had to take a picture of it and try my luck on my mom’s side though attempt failed. Though i know there’s no way i can’t bring it home to look after it, i couldnt help myself feeling upset and mad thus cried a little before leaving that area. i really want to have that puppy so much.. It’s fur, eyes and face… Everything about it was oh-so-right yet i can’t have it.. 😦 i hate almost everything that’s happening lately. This time im not gonna say nor explain myself anymore. It’s just all a waste of effort anyway.. i just want that puppy, at least i know it’ll never make me upset and will be there for me anytime…

The moment i dread most..

It’s been more than three years since i last saw my ‘dad’. No way would i forget how mummy had to be strong for sisters and myself that night when we left the place we love so much as home. The hatred i have for this man is way to the extreme whether or not i express it. And at 2.30pm this date, i will have to meet him again for some mediation. Like seriously, why won’t him leave us alone. Since my sisters went through the same shit months ago, i hope after mine this round, he has no more stupid games to play and disrupt our lives and emotions.. =/