Back home.

Hello prettybites, im back from my short trip! So before my lappy battery died out, i shall typed a little short post about the trip. Well, 5d4n wasn’t exactly too long nor too short to stay and shop.. Was really glad that the hotel was located near the must-go shopping malls and that the train station was so damn near! Very convenient indeed.. Oh yes, i stayed at Novotel Hotel in Siam. Though the lobby looks a little oldie-style, im glad the room was comfortable to my liking! As i was promised to spend a fruitful shopping trip in Bangkok, i promised to do some research on a shopping mall which dedicates to the boy too. Satisfied that he managed to shop around too though most of the time he was carrying my shopping bags. Over there, it’s highly populated and the standard of living is to both extreme(the poor and the rich). It aches my heart seeing how poorthing some really are and wonder how much the rich actually earns to pimp the their luxurious rides. And one thing i hate about is the heavy traffic. It seems to me that the traffic lights have no existence to the drivers; be it whatever kind of vehicle. From this trip with the boy, i learnt a couple of things.. Not just learning to appreciate the lifestyle in Singapore but also keeping my cool. Shall not elaborate much on here though.. And that’s all for now..

Oh and my dear Jaslyn actually texted me whilst i was overseas and i felt so much warmth from her though she’s far away from me.. Thank you, Jaslyn! Im waiting for you to come back in Nov/Dec! It’s just a few months from not meeting for years and im so excited already! *i know you’re reading my blog!* Moving on, as mentioned in the past few posts, i’ve been bend on attaining grade A for my repeated module more than even just a B though that’s the least i would pray for. Thanks to everyone and everything that motivated me for the past six months and i scored A! Couldn’t be any happier that my hardwork has been paid off.. *pats shoulder* Met Joyce earlier for dinner at Nex for some Korean food and icecream. The poor girl caught a cold from the late nights of world cup.. Oh, and she bought me a duper pretty necklace from Guess for my birthday; that’s my ever oh-so-awesome dear girl that im glad we met from a nasty hr job. Though we don’t meet often, the chemistry shared is always felt without fail, anytime-anywhere.. Gonna have a cup of english breakfast before going to bed..

So now off i go~

Angsty T.

To those of you out there, mainly girls, who envied me for the relationship i portray to have right from the beginning- it’s not what you think it is. Myself envies others and even some of yours too. Yes, it is contradicting.. Period.

Before hitting the sheets..

Well today/ytd wasn’t exactly a total wasted one.. Though i was lazing around pretty much at home whilst passing time, i had a quarter-fruitful evening. After damn long, i finally did some exercise again.. It’s been months since i last jogged. However then, the past few incidents weren’t great at all.. Having measured my blood pressure at the clinic, i was told by the nurse that i have blood pressure lower than that of a healthy young adult. From then i decided to take iron supplements hoping to do some goodness out of it, but with poor self-discipline, i failed to take it on a daily basis for a couple of months already..Same goes for my vitamin-C supplements. Swallowing those big pills that takes forever to dissolve is not my thing.. So then earlier, i somewhat convinced myself that being discipline and consuming my supplements again would put me back on form. Though it was a short route, i have yet to complete it without any stops. Am kinda disappointed with my current stamina and health.. To think back on how i could run from braddell to novena without stopping even when im at the traffic lights im jogging on the spot, it brings my moral down a lot.. i used to be the fastest girl to complete 2.4km every year in my class without fail.. Yet now, i feel so useless.. i lack of stamina and health, i could hardly breathe and like any moment, i could faint on the streets with the terrible headache and giddy spells. Dear god, please keep me healthy and be able to run like how i always did.. Only then, i can keep a clear state of mind to think.. Please, let me run again.. 😦

As mentioned in my post’s title, here’s a list of my activities before heading to bangkok.. Later in the day, i’ll be working for event at LTA again.. Prolly head home straight after and pack some stuffs lying around the house, then have an early night. On Wednesday, same event for another half day and after, i’ll be heading to meet my cousin and sister at Tanjong Pagar for gown-fitting! Can’t wait to try on those pretty fabric for bridesmaid! Then come Thursday, i would have to get my lugguage packed for 5d4n in bangkok. And on Friday morning, finally setting off on a shopping spree! Yayness! Shall fill my stomach a little first and rest up for later..

Till Wednesday/when im back from my short trip..

End of fights.

I don’t want to fight with you ever again.. It’s too much of damage done that I don’t wish to even fight for this relationship anymore.. Had enough.. And I shall not post anymore of you like I promised not to..

Just some thoughts.

When all things start to fall back into place, or at least it seem like it, you wish it stays for good and for long.. But often that’s not the case. And right now, i don’t know what’s mine. When i turn a deaf ear, it doesn’t mean i didn’t hear, i merely chose not to listen. When i turn away without hesitation, it’s not because i didn’t see anything, but i thought i shouldn’t be thinking too deep. When i hold back the words that wanted so badly to come out from my mouth, i did it only for the benefit of doubt for i don’t want those words to hurt any good feelings. All for it, just so you know, i really care a lot though i never truly show..

Say im paranoid; but right at the moment when i feel that things aren’t right, my insecurities set in and continue to grow. And honestly, i don’t know when will my insecurities die off..

Maybe one day when im stronger than to mend a broken heart, i’ll pack all our stuffs in a beautiful box and leave it in another corner to dust.. Afterall, what’s beautiful should be left as it is even if the fact ain’t anymore. Every wound would recover but there’s always a scar left behind..Even if the scar fades after decades, you know there was still that scar right there..

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On another note, i’ve been a little hooked onto brunch dates with the boy lately. How i wish it becomes a tradition that we have it every weekend. 8days more to bkk for our shopping spree.. i pray that when we’re back from our trip, all would be good like brand new.. Right, shall have myself a cup noodles before hitting the sheets. i foresee myself continue packing, have some tea and doing some reading..

Updates.

As promised, here i am updating the rest of the birthday(belated).. As i was having my repeated module’s paper on the day after my birthday, there wasn’t much going on the birthday itself. But im happy that ClemT wished me on my birthday in the late morning. Spent the morning at an event, ended and took a really a long loop trip back home for about an hour and a half though i was supposed to head down to school to revise with my schoolmates.. Had some rest which i was in need of desperately and off to meet mummy, sisters together with the boy for hotpot at tpy’s crystal jade.. And for no reason, my sinus started kicking in the moment i stopped eating and it lasted the entire night. Could hardly concentrate on the last bit of revision and had to leave it all to last bit of faith for the fact that i’ve been good revising since the semester started. Despite waking up early the next morning to try absorbing a little more theory, i couldn’t do much out of it. The morning was so terrible because i was panicking when i waited for 40-ish minutes and there wasn’t any cab available, not even when i tried calling for one. And when i finally hopped onto one, it’s meter started from 5$!! I don’t know if i should count myself lucky, we didn’t face much of a traffic jam since the cabbie drove via holland down to clementi instead of pie/lornie.. Yes, my cab fare was 29$.. the most expensive cab fare so far.. Reached school with only ½hour left before the paper commences, my mind was totally blocked so much that i felt if anyone would to hold me and shake me hard, all that i’ve studied for would prolly slipped off my brains!! That was how much i was panicking. Then the moment of truth arrived and i swear i couldn’t be more thankful ever to be sitting for an easier paper than the previous round which was already pretty easy.. So confident me submitted my paper after an hour and forty minutes.. Now, im praying i see an A when results are out since i already secured an A for my assignments. Okay, maybe at least a B+.. Whatever it’s over and done, after the paper i waited for the rest or whoever who wanted lunch together, had it and poof back home to pack for a night over at MBS with the boy. Mommy and sissy joined us for awhile in the evening.. We had room service since the boy planned for fine-dining which was never my thing i fancy at all.. The night passed pretty quickly and there it’s over. Checked out and headed back to my place to kill time before meeting my DMS lovelies for the night.

Was really happy to spent a belated birthday with my DMS lovelies. They are the ones i’ve been spending most of my time with for the past 2½ years.. We started off as strangers and today we share this team spirit and bond that’s an indescrible feeling.. Though not everyone turned up, but im glad to those who made the effort. They bought me really pretty presents that made me so happy about! Very thoughtful choice they’ve made.. Some are definitely graduating after this 2½ years while some others have yet to, including myself. Whichever it is, im sure this is not the end to our friendships as i promise to be gather everyone whenever possible.. (: These people really brighten up my days.. With lesser of them now after this semester which is over, i hope to share and continue the spirit we all have within our hearts until every single one of us graduates. Thank you my awesome DMS lovelies!♥

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Updating for updates.

And now, i’ve passed my 21st. Though nothing fantastic took place on the date of the event, i have still not to deny the fact i had a memorable one though being belated. And awesomeness being itself, im entering this post with my favourite present of all- sony vaio s-series! The boy bought me a notebook because im always upset about how cranky the one my sister passed down to me since like 4-5years ago.. It’s a Duo-core, so yeah you guys should be able to tell how long ago it was.. Anyway, this is just a brief of the next post coming up with the rest of my other lovely presents! gonna take nice photos of each and every one of them first!(: (more about the birthday next post..)