Back on track?

It’s back to five-hours-of-sleep every day again now.. i can’t help but to go on ranting how tired i am to everyone out there. For the past two days, i’ve been feeling faint. It’s prolly due to insufficient rest for my body.. But what am i to do? With an ultimately hectic work schedule and endless lecture notes along with tutorial to go through, there’s nothing i can do but to fight on. i’m gonna aim for a grade A for financial accounting this semester. Shall start working towards my aim.. But i really don’t know what to do with my other two modules especially so like half the time when i can’t even understand what’s going on during lecture.. sighh.

Last night, i thought to myself, why am i the way i am now. And i can’t seem to derive an answer out of it.

Right, i should go now since i have work from 0700-1730 and school from 1900-2200. Hope i do have some energy left by night to at least join my schoolmates for supper. Yet another lonnggg dayyy~

Put me on a carousel ride and never stop it..

Hey there, life.

26th July, Monday

Together with the beauty advisor, Joanne, met up at wheelock supposedly myself wanting to neaten my brows. So while i was waiting, i decided to roam about at Borders. By the time Joanne reached me i already had two books in hand and was looking on for more. =x To my surprise, she joined me too! (: Spent quite a long while at Borders getting books from the literature section and poof, two for her and three for myself. Then on we headed to Browhaus wanting to try it out but unfortunately the only available slot for a walk-in was at 7.45pm!! Which apparently neither of us will be able to wait till then since both of us have a lecture to attend from 7-10pm. Skipped it, shall make an appointment with them soon! *with much anticipation to my first-time-ever brow threading & tweezing* Off we continued in need of food so round the corner there was Skinny Pizza. IT’S A MUST-TRY, EVERYONE!! I bet whoever who sees the food pictures as above can’t stop drooling over it rightt… It’s just so interesting that i think it’s worth the bill though Joanne begs to differ that. Hmmm. Anyhow, we were running so late for class and lazy to bus down, we cabbed instead. BUT, due to insufficient rest and deteriorating memory, i left my cardigan at home and desperately needed to get one or i’ll prolly freeze throughout the entire lecture. Ended up at Mango and the sales tempted us so much!! Joanne contemplated and decided to give the dress she tried on a miss. On my side, i got this new collection cardigan which was commented by her, “it’s-so-you-lah”.. But i really like it’s color much! ♥ And another off-white/cream demin high-waist skirt. ♥ Overall, it was indeed a very satisfying retail-therapy day that actually boost my mood a lil’ for lecture in the evening! (: Oh, not forgetting, Patrick was nice enough to help pack macdonald’s fries all the way from KAP which is quite a distant from Namly Avenue during our short 15minutes break. GOOD DAY. (:

SEE! i even wrapped them up the very night itself.

~

Moody i was hours ago but i’m feeling a lil’ better now. Right, shall not carry on with rants but to bed instead. Danggss, full-shift tomorrow(later i meant).

Goodnight, readers. i choose not to remind myself of how angry and upset i was earlier on.

Wild Honey

25th July, Sunday

Yes as planned, met up with dearest two- YeeLin & Hidayah for dinner after work. YeeLin wanted to bring us so much to Wild Honey at Mandarin Gallery. Famished we were, YeeLin and myself had to wait for Hidayah for duper longg~.. Almost two hours later then only we grab our bite for dinner. Caught up pretty much with one another and yes indeed i’ve been a great bimb tonight as they both agreed.. =x Since every one of us has work/school tomorrow, home was up next straight after dinning at Wild Honey. (Sadly no pictures taken with my dear apple.)

It’s gonna be my offday tomorrow so HURRAY! i can sleep in till noon/late morning and improve on my CA-1 for business statistic before heading to school. Not sure if i should have a little retail therapy on make-up storage/ trim my brows maybe.. Shall see how.. Lately i’ve been too lazy to do anything more than spamming my basic coverage before leaving the house.. i skipped my weekly mask-routine for two weeks by now and have had been staying up till late with schoolwork and not hydrating much. Conclusion is, my face undergoing a major breakout! ): And it feels as if im falling sick soon. Well, somehow my body makes me feel so.. 

Oh yes, am very proud of myself that i hit the daily sales target of 1k on my own this afternoon! People tell me that i should consider staying on in the sales-line but i don’t wish to.. Even if i do, i’d love to have a shop of my own dealing with little children’s clothings and accessories. Just like a combination of Gingersnaps, Girls(?), Kiddy Palace(maybe).. Wouldn’t it be great?

Hmmmmm. Shall stop dreaming on for now, wash up and work on my questionaire again.

Goodnight, Prettybites.

A hectic week indeed.

Indeed a hectic week for myself. No offday this week and semester-2 seems like some gan-jiong-spider course. ):  Thank goodness it’s ending and poof comes a new week. Right now, im merely tapping the keypad here to ease off a little during my unlimited break-time before i start cracking my brains again for the remaining 5questions, re-arrange the questions’ order and finally mass send it to my groupmates. Guess, i’ll end up sleeping less than i need to again.. All for BUSINESS STATISTIC QUESTIONAIRE. grrrr.

Ohyes, and i’ve wasted 6.60$ on breadtalk cheesecake sticks. Looks are deceiving. In the 2nd picture: Greentea cheesecake stick>cheesecake stick>cranberry cheesecake stick. i swear the only edible one was cranberry. Well, the remains went down the rubbish chute- that explains pretty much already. *feels like puking from it still*

Right, shall hurry back to the last pathetic 5questions and pack up for tomorrow/later. im finally meeting up with dearest YeeLin and Hidayah after work ends for me in the evening! CHEERIOS MAN! Shit, my apple’s still lagging from the software update. >.<

♥-will continue having faith

Thank you, god. (:

19th July, Monday

Can’t believe that i’m dreading school now as much as i was looking forward to it during the holidays. ’cause i slept only at 3.09am(the last time i saw the time on my apple before i KO-ed), i was dead tired and in the falling-asleep mode though i had to stand throughout for work.. This is especially so after my first meal of the day. Heh, what’s new.. 😉 Then finally it was time to get changed and leave work for school!! *with lotsa excitement*

However unfortunate, only realised that 13 outta 32(?) from the 104th intake made it up to semester-2. So this semester, our first lecture was on business statistics. I guess it’s all just about numbers, differentiating, applying the right formulae every time. Shouldn’t be that difficult i hope. Yet our lecturer went all the way back to the old-school-teaching-method; using OHP(over-head projector) with all that transparencies! Omgdness man.. Just on our first lecture of the new semester and we were given a dateline to submit out CA2 questionaire by the next lecture! Like.. OMGDNESS again!!!! Seriously, gotta get back on track before it’s too late though it’s still early to say so.. Now this is enough to explain why i dread school uh?.. Somehow i feel that i probably left a terrible first impression to the lecturer ’cause i simply can’t stop chewing my gums and blowing/popping them, and munching away on biscuits and chips.. But still, i did managed to pay attention! 🙂 Ended class later than the others so everyone left heading home and the plan to hang out after class was totally off our minds even before break-time!! See how stressed up we are?.. Aight, enough of self-pity.

So then after school, i headed back to amk to meet Gwendyln since she wanted to meet up for supper. To my surprise, she had gotten me a Tiffany & Co. necklace! It’s was from online so i guessed it’s a mass product deviation or something. But whatever it is, it really looked like the one she saw at the boutique itself!! And yes, it’s with the seahorse pendant! the one i wanted so badly but just noone wants to buy it for me.. But i have it now still!!! 😀 Ohyeah, and she passed me a pair of crocs loafers that she bought for her younger sister but she didn’t like it so small feet me was on her list! 🙂 *super happy girl here!!*

Thank you, Gwendyln. I really love it a lot. ♥ Thank you, god. ♥ For making me have faith in my friends and never to leave them behind/outta my life, over lil’ misunderstandings here and there.. And when i say god, i meant all of them above, no religion in particular. 

Right, i gotta file up my all my lecture notes now and tuck into the sheets real soon or i’ll prolly be  late for work again in the morning later..

Goodnight world, i ♥ my seahorse necklace!

Oh, and i super ♥ the photos since i downloaded PS mobile for my dear apple!

*Can’t stop taking picture anymore.. xD*

Indeed it’s been a while.

Right, so here i am tapping the keypad again. Yesterday was great! After so long and i get to see the boys again. It’s been a while like REALLY A LONG WHILE! Nonetheless, managed to catch up with everyone a little here and there before i left to meet Clement for a drink. It was very much like a catching-up day i must say. Felt really awful when i had to leave the boys and Robin’s mom was telling me that we have yet to bring out the cakes.. But i just had to go though i really wished to stay a lil’ longer or throughout even.. Sorry Robin, i tried my best to stay as long as i could. Will make it up to you! (:

Back-to-school on Monday after work. Now that the GSS is more or less over, i guess it would do me some good since semester-2 is gonna drive everyone crazy. i just wanna mug hard enough for this upcoming semester and on to my year-2. Can’t wait to finish up this damn draggy diploma since it’s mere part-time. i hope by the end of semester-4, i know what course i’m gonna pursue for my degree. So not wanting to stick with just a diploma, what’s more when it’s from a local private institution. Wonder if by the time i graduate, will my certificate finally be recognized by local universities.. rawwghhh~ All these academic issues.. Someone, guide me please….

Dangs. i gotta get packing the beddings, my closet and accessories drawer.. Cure for my nails and mask for my face when i’m done with every lil’ chore. Boohoo, i need to pop down pink pills first. Oh and i must say: these days, i can’t leave the house without my basic coverage. More Mac to come my way! 😉

No idea why, i couldn’t pluck up any courage and flip this unfinished book outta my bag last night.. Left with the last binder of the book to write yet something’s stopping me from writing on. What’s going on, teressa.. I’m sitting on the fence once again.

♥-not for now.

And the saying goes: so near yet so far..

i dont like the internet in combination of my curiousity. For something which i’ve been yearning for is now someone else’s. It meant so much to me but the other party didnt feel/think so and gave it to a third party yet what does the third party know about it even if the third party loves it. And there, we/maybe just myself lost the significance of it all to someone else.. like a really long time ago.. God really does have his tricks up his sleeves huh.. Only after so many months later and i chanced upon that cyber diary whilst randomly surfing further on for more online blogshops. It’s been a day and that heart-drop-feeling never seem to fade a little at all. Still i pulled off my day at work and tomorrow’s just another day of work like nice lengthy eleven and a half hours in total. Come soon Friday, i need you so badly. It’s gonna be another birthday bbq for Robin’s last teenth celebration. That would also mean time to meet the boys after soo lloonnggg~ How great would it be, aight? And follow-up on list to end off the night would be meeting some friend to catch up before semester-2 starts on Monday. We haven’t exactly caught up with one another for a gazillion years or at least it felt so..

Seems like i need more new aims in life. i wanna be happy all over again. i dont wanna stay numbed to all that’s happening around me. i just wanna be free from whatever i’ve left myself to be held back by. There’re some things which i can’t help but to keep on in believing. However still, it’s contradicting much when reality slaps right in my face real hard that these all may just be me deluding myself throughout. True or delusions, i don’t wish to carry on figuring them out. It’s tiring enough that one fine day i may just be drained out totally. When will these all end for me? Or rather, when will i be ready for these all to have an end.. i wanna be strong and hard to get just like the good old times i had. By then i would really appreciate if everyone starts loving me for who i am. i keep telling myself to do what i feel i should or i may live in regrets. Yet it feels having what i’ve done in the past is making me regret instead. It ain’t because of any reason other than the misery and more regrets i’ve brought on upon another for knowing me.. Am i putting in too much of feels? God, just once again. Help me out here.. i will not regret for the things i’ve done or will be doing, just help me out a little in time when i should hold back, hold on, and let go. Shouldn’t it be time you stop playing tricks on me after all this while that i’ve been keeping my faith in whatever i’ve prayed for strong enough or at least i feel so.. Thanks for making me stronger each time but this round, im getting weaker.. i prayed for another face for whom i love to kiss on, another shoulder to lay my head on, another pair of hands for me to hold on, another pair of legs to walk this ‘roller-coaster’ life with me, another soul to love me truely.. If you’ve given it all to me, show me it’s indeed what i’ve been believing instead of deluding.. i wanna love myself more.

Aight, time to hit the sheets or i’ll have less than four hours of rest before a really long day of work ahead.

It sucks pretty much when you’re missing of another half to rant out all that’s inside, no?