Different.

Just when you know the whole situation can never be ammended, you’re only to pluck up some courage and live with it.. Maybe as time goes by, things will settle for its own without having to worry oneself.. At that moment when you asked how’s the situation, the thought i had -that it matters to you, makes me wonder. Are we starting to think back on what we did and what we said that led us to today, where we are..

On a lighter note, im like drinking watercrest with BOUNCY fishballs soup.. Okay, minus the watercrest since there ain’t any left in the pot. And my oh my, the fishballs are making me happy… Oh, i loveee bouncyyy fisshhballlssss~~ (:

*starts to wonder- what time is my boy gonna sleep..*

He’s my Rockstar.

It’s unfortunate that my body seems to be getting weaker.. Been to the doctor today with mummy since she is unwell too and it’s measured that i have low blood pressure and stress with fatique causing the frequent headaches of late. So i see it’s indeed time to leave my job soon before having to serve two months notice period instead of mere two weeks. Just yesterday, i learnt that jS put me before anything. At times im left to wonder, have i been demanding too much from him.. The dearest spent the whole morning within 3hours to finish my finance report when he knew nothing from the start.. Despite me giving up on myself, he persisted and showed me how much he really didn’t want to see me fall whilst reaching the peak. I can’t ask for more, can i? Though jS and i may face many rough patches as we press on working on this relationship, i must admit that i am indeed blessed having him by my side- my guardian angel.. (:

♥

… i wish i am his too…

 

At times…

… you’ll just tend to feel insecure all over and flashbacks from the past return so freshly making yourself think there’s a chance to change the end of the path that yourself had walked.. Dear self, where have you been? To be back at the past once more or to keep going hoping for a different future….

A very tiring day.

13th August, Saturday

Spent a damn saturday at work from 1000-1630hours just passing time like grrr. Having to skip band practice was cruel enough for me but wasting time at work is worst. Thank goodness baby came to the rescue and we decided on hunting for his mom’s birthday present. Though we were kinda aimless at the start, we managed to settle on an osim usqueeze for his dearest mom.. What a lovely boy.. Oh, and some great dinner we had at wheelock despite not having much appetite..

I’m starting to wonder if i should leave my job.. Every day i only have myself to wonder if the situation may just get better the next day.. But for the entire past week, my dear boy had to tolerate me with all the rants right from the moment we meet till he sends me home. And that made me realize how dependent on him ive became.. Boo me. Tomorrow is just the start of another hectic week. Oh well…..

Not forgetting..

8th June, Friday

A warm cozy meet-up with the simmers before school starts.. Though not everyone was able to make it, still we chilled to the max! (:

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10th July, Sunday

Breakfast at HATCHED with the boy before heading for tanning at sentosa.

One word=SATISFYING!

Some cookies i can’t resist after seeing them.. Bought and shared them with the boy’s little cousin and my cousins. The kids just love colorful sweet stuffs..

Ohyeah, the GAMEBOY fooled many including myself!! haha! It’s a silicon one so totally perfect for my white apple. And the kitty stickers fills me with childhood memories of how crazy i get over it.. Yeap, bought them and sticked it on individual acrylic cases. And the best deal about the stickers was it comes for back AND front!! Pretty cheap too! (:

♥

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EXCITED MUCH FOR SEMESTER 4!!

Nearing two years.

Many of times we tend to look back on things we miss. I say it’s just human to be. What was mine but not after and became another’s- the feeling is terrible.. And at such hour, i wish what was long gone still belongs to me.. At least it’s enough for me to rest my head and sleep on in hope for one of those dreams i have that leaves me only to wake up with the widest smile. In denial or not..

Hmmm. Let’s hope i wake up with these thoughts away and spend the rest of the day fine with the boy.. Dear Sun, i would need you so much!

A little thought.

A series of incidents happened, stacked on top of one another as they come, every other day..

Work is over for me and till this moment i feel i’ve not wronged anyone out there for all that i’ve been living with for the past few months until it striked my mind how much an idiot i’ve been. Totally see no reason why should i feel obliged to even be bothered trying to do my part holding basic responsibilities whilst at work when im merely a part-timer. I tried not to be calculative but all i get in return is being taken granted for time and again just because the other has a duper innocent face/simple-minded-ness.. Then again, others who seem sensitive much/plain paranoid reacted to whatever that was never meant for them and that- unhappiness arised. Shall turn it into a blessing in disguise then since im pretty redundant with full manpower at work now.. It’s just upsetting how people can choose to be nonchalant about deeper facts than whatever that appears on the surface. Oh well…

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Then again at times having seeked for the truths may not always be the best though everyone agreed that the awkwardness has had been cleared.. Now i wonder if it was ever supposed to be for me to know whatever that was always the least of concerns i always have..

Besides, the constant feeling of my boy getting a little too comfy getting used-to the way i am, brings my confidence about us a futher dive down.. Not to be mistaken, it’s not about him.. but yours truely, myself. Should i…? If so, when then…? If not, how…?

Praying for the rest of July to be of a little peaceful. Can’t wait for school to resume the following week and of course to catch up with dearieyann and spend more time with the boy. And all these starts later in the evening!! Peace.

Before i go guess what i found from the net…

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tempted to order online.. hmmm….

*Shooed outta here*

Likes.

Shyy boy there.. ♥ LAUGH OUT LOUD PEEPS!

It was indeed a BEAUTIFUL Sunday.

26th June

Since the boy wanted to ice-skate, we went for it at kallang! Well, he was from the ice-skating team during his university days for merely a semester.. Well, though it ain’t my first time nor were we good at it, we sure had much fun going round and round.. Am so proud of my bravery though i had baby’s hand to hold throughout the entire time.. We skated faster as we go and poorthing the boy had a couple of falls when i lost balance yet didn’t fall instead.. Hees.. Love the boy! Oh, and he promised to treat me to this again the next round! Wheee~!!

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Bahh.. it’s a full-shift for work laterrr… shall whip up instant noodles with egg and head to bed then..

I hope it’s not a rebound nor will it be too late to realize then..

Back to good times, shall we?

It’s time i learn to communicate better with my boy before…

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Work-less for two days leaves me to pen down some thoughts running through my head at such hour..

Anyhow, semester-4 is just three weeks away, i think.. and there goes the holidays.. a part of me wants it to start soon so then i’ll have lesser time to think too much and end up in a mess with baby like anytime.. then again, with school work piling, it spells lesser time to spend with him.. hmmm.. gonna start planning time aside for him before he emosup.. bahhh~ needa new job to manage school assignments better from next semester and improve on my savings plan too..

suming up–> PATHETIC MUCH. PERIOD.

Can’t wait to meet baby for ikea with mummy later in the evening~